Growing Up...

Yeah, I know....long time no see!  But I had a few thoughts that I wanted to jot down tonight.

So, today is my friend Kristen Todd's b-day!  Yay Kristen!  Anyway, for Kristen's b-day she had friends meet her up at the Hall.  First off, I ran into my Freshmen roommate and that brought back lots of good memories.  And then I realized I think I went to the Hall once last year and that is it.  All of a sudden all of these feelings started flooding in while I was watching people dance.  I realized I'm growing up.  It just doesn't seem the same anymore.  I mean, I had a LOT of fun!  It was great!  At the same time it was just weird.  It felt like going back to high school and playing in one more v-ball match or marching at one more football game.  Like I don't belong.  All of these feelings are bittersweet.  I pondered.....have I lived life?  Did I do all the things I wanted to do while I was in college?  Because the fact is, there are some things that you can only do during one phase of your life. Sure, when you are an adult you can still go out but to me you wouldn't really be an adult.  That is what college is for...1) getting an education 2) experiencing new things, going to clubs, concerts, parties, movies, festivals, lectures, walking around campus, go pond hopping, eating at IHOP at 2 o'clock in the morning, lots of random events,  anything that you couldn't experience in high school but you won't have the chance to experience outside of college.  There is a time when you do have to grow up....I have reached that time in my life.....but....I just don't think I'm ready.

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How is it that boys can express my ideas and emotion through song better than girls?

Example:

"My words, they pour
Like children to the playground
Children to the playground
You make me smile"

"It's the feeling I get
My palms with sweat
Like some kind of daydream
I'll never forget
I'm stuck in this spin
Why does it begin
By touching the edge of her skin"

"You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take"

"I came to see the light in my best friend
You seemed as happy as you'd ever been
My chance of being open was broken
And now you're Mrs. him."

"I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart......
My heart, my pain won't cover up, you left me" 

"I want to learn to walk with others as an equal
I want to treat the ones who love me with respect
I want to tell the world I'll give them all a piggyback
And try to take away my negative effect"

"Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?"

"A heartbeat skip, relationship"

"I might crumble, I might take a fall again"

"A real-life script of how
Our hands would hold and not let go"

"Please take the message
That you taught me how to live at last"

"Our hearts were on display
For all to see
I can't believe this is happening.
I raised my hand as if to show you I was yours
That I was so yours for the taking
I'm still so yours for the taking"

I know you probably didn't read all of these lyrics and thats cool.  I just know lyrics always seem to touch my soul and  I want to write down and remember the lyrics that touched my soul.

Blue......you TOUCH my Soul!

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Easter=AMAZING!!!!!

Brief recap of Easter 2006!

Friday: Good Friday Lunch service, siblings arrive, dinner with the Garden Club Gang!!! (Good Times), watched Blue October on Jay Leno!!  Good Job Guys!!!

Saturday:  got a blender, went to J.C. Penny’s and got a butt load of clothes dirt cheap!! (love that store), EASTER EGG HUNT!!!!!!!!  (coolest Easter Egg Hunt EVER), dinner with the family(all 12 of us, which is only the parentals, siblings and their families), Penny’s again (good sale…didn’t have time to look at shoes earlier in the day), watched King Kong! (it was actually good)

Sunday: CHURCH!, Mimi’s house for lunch (ate WAY too much food….but it was Delish), back to CS, dinner at Roadhouse to celebrate Chelsea being able to consume MEAT again!, games and Walk the Line…….

THE END TO AN AMAZING EASTER WEEKEND!!!! 

UP FROM THE GRAVE HE AROSE!!!!!!!!

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I'm going to update on my birthday later.....but right now I want to comment on something else.

At times I feel like a HUGE copycat.  It seems like I like certain things because of the influence from my friends.  Well, I have a new love in my life right now and I don't know if it is because I am being a copycat or what but I don't care because I know it is a TRUE LOVE!!!!  Thanks to Jiffer, Elliot and Carrie Giles....I'm in LOVE with........

BLUE OCTOBER

Their music is truly AMAZING!!!!!  As I told Eric, Angela, and Rachel, the lead singer for the group has an enchanting voice....it's like a potion....he is addictive!!!!  His voice truly touches the soul.....literally!

"Congratulations"......beautiful song!  Carrie Giles....I know this is your favorite song and this is where I feel like the copycat but it is truly beautiful and mindboggling! There is so much passion!!  I LOVE it!!!  So, I must post lyrics!

CONGRATULATIONS

Is that seat taken
Congratulations
Would you like to take a walk with me

My mind it kind of goes fast
I try to slow it down for you
I think i'd love to take a drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

I came to see the light in my best friend
You seemed as happy as you'd ever been
My chance of being open was broken
And now you're Mrs. him.

My words they don't come out right
But I'll try to say i'm happy for you
I think I'm going to take that drive
I want to give you something
I have wanted to give to you for years
My hearts

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

And I can't change this
I can never take it back
But now I can't change your mind
(You left me)
And I can't this
I can never take this back
But now I can't change your mind
can't change your mind
(You left me)
Can't change you mind
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)

Go away
Make it go away
Please

BUY THIS CD TODAY!!!!  Actually you can't because it is sold out at Best Buy and Wal-mart....that is how AMAZING this CD is!   I had to steal it from Eric!